Tag: personal

officially got my rejection from Oxford, lol. a bit disappointed, undeniably, but not too surprised, and perhaps it’s for the best. I’ll apply to Canadian universities and maybe if I pursue a postgraduate degree, I can try again. 😀

My school’s semi formal was tonight and!!! I actually danced!!!!! And that probably doesn’t sound like a huge deal but like, I’ve never danced spontaneously/unchoreographed like this before at any event, much less a huge public one with three hundred students crammed in a banquet hall together, because I’ve always been too embarrassed to do so. And at first I was nervous as heck and kept cursing myself out like “why am I even standing up, I look ridiculous and I should just go hide at our table until it’s over”, but eventually some part of me decided to eff it and I eventually found my friends and started dancing with them. I felt super awkward for the first portion but gradually warmed up until I was having the time of my life by the end of it. Obviously I’m not the best dancer but for once it didn’t matter to me, I was just able to enjoy myself. We all danced for two hours straight and I was totally stepped on by a few tall people lol but it was just genuinely such a great time. I still feel giddy from the excitement of it even though it ended over two hours ago. Plus the food was absolutely amazing and we took cute photos at the photobooth and all my friends looked stunning and ethereal in their beautiful outfits and I also loved my own makeup and what I was wearing. 

it was just the best night I’ve had in such a long time and I’m getting almost weepy with happiness just thinking about it

Oxford interview responses come in soon and I am truly terrified!!! This is like… the moment I’ve been building up to all this time and the suspense is killing me, lol. I’ll either get an acceptance or rejection likely within the next few days, if not tomorrow (today? since it’s past midnight). 

whatever response I get, I’m moving forward and using it to improve myself. I just look forward to getting a response at all if only to end this tension lol

Apparently the guy who played Garthan Saal in GOTG (aka “what a bunch of a-holes”) is the same guy who voiced Crowley in the GO radio adaptation??? 

I was listening through the drama a second time today and had the feeling that Crowley’s voice actor sounded vaguely familiar, but that was the last possible connection I’d expected lol

me reading over a thing I just wrote: hey this isn’t bad! I can live with showing others this and seeing what they think about it

me four months later, thinking about that horrid first draft and crying: WHAT ON EARTH COMPELLED ME TO SHOW THIS TO ACTUAL HUMAN BEINGS